Hopeless

hi, i'm feeling so demoralised.
A Maths sucks, i suck.

you know, i did put effort. i'm confident of Differentiation, i know how it works. but i still screw up the paper? it's like, i feel that the (most of the) answers i got are wrong, they look weird. i tried to look "normal" after the paper, but people always like to (to put it nicely) discuss about the answers non-stop, just like how girls gossip. and it's always the same, they tend to get worked up over it. and frankly speaking, from the start of last year, i'd seldom talk about answers after the paper, maybe just ask a one or two.

it's your fecking mouth, i know. but becos' it hurts me, it's my problem.

i stuffed my earpiece into my ears after that. thank god i brought my mp3 to school, i'm thinking to leave it at home this morning.

sigh~ fucking cb ok?

i've still been thinking whether to go to JC or Poly. i'm not sure. i like the so-many holidays that Poly students have, but yet envy people who are in the top JCs. i want to walk around with the top JCs uniform, but i hate studying subjects which i'm studying now. i know i'd just contradicted myself.

there's nothing to look forward to everyday, and i think i've become somehow like a introvert now. i don't like to talk in school, ignoring everyone, unless i think that he/she is nice. ah fuck it. but i like people i met at other places though. =~